I grew up witnessing my father hurt my mother.

 

As a young girl, I experienced my boundaries being crossed by a family member. I was too young to understand what was happening.

 

At 22, I lost the first boy I ever loved—the one I thought I would marry—in a sudden car accident.

 

At 26, I experienced an unexpected pregnancy and had to make the incredibly difficult decision to terminate. That experience led me into a deep depression, which only worsened when I was placed on birth control—something I was  encouraged to take by my partner at the time so that he could fully enjoy himself.

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Through all of these experiences, I stayed silent. I never fully expressed myself. I didn’t feel safe enough to share what I had been through or how deeply it affected me.

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It wasn’t until I met my now husband that I began to heal. He was the first person who truly saw me, heard me, and loved me for who I am and all that I’ve been through.

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At the time we met, I didn’t realize how much my womb had been through or how it would affect us.​ All I knew was that I had finally met the man of my dreams and wanted to make babies with him ASAP. We began trying to conceive shortly after we got married. I was so excited and honestly, I expected it to happen quickly. When it didn’t, I was SO confused and eventually spiraled into trying to find answers.

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I started tracking my cycle to understand my body for the first time and my charts revealed that I had a short luteal phase. Around that same time, I listened to a podcast interview with one of my teachers, where she spoke about the womb as an energetic portal that stores unresolved trauma—and how sobada de matriz can help release both personal and ancestral trauma. I immediately knew I needed to experience a sobada de matriz for myself.

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So I flew to Long Beach, California to receive a sobada de matriz with Panquetzani.

 

That weekend changed my life.

 

The first night, about 15 of us laid shoulder to shoulder on Panque’s living room floor. We had never met, yet there we were—as close and as vulnerable as we could be. As Panque guided us through self-womb massage and sang the most beautiful, heartfelt canciones, we all cracked wide open. We cried, we yelled, we released. It was so incredibly powerful, and for the first time, I felt empowered in my own body.

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Over that weekend, she guided me to connect with my uterus and ovaries. With my eyes closed, I could feel a subtle pulse beneath my fingertips. I was in complete awe! I had no idea we could feel the pulse of our womb organs! Before I flew back home, she shared that my uterus was tipped and dropped to the right. During the acomodada, I heard a loud pop as my uterus was shifted back into place. There was no pain—just that sound, followed by a sudden rush of energy through my body. When I sat up, I actually felt at home in my body. I had practiced yoga for years before this moment and thought I understood what alignment felt like… but this was so incredibly different—something I don’t have the words to fully describe. That experience alone is what inspired me to specialize my massage practice around the womb. I want every womb holder to feel that same sense of returning home to themselves.

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After returning from my trip and committing to my own womb care practices, six months went by—and still no positive pregnancy test. Through advocating for myself and using my cycle tracking charts, I received an ultrasound that showed the classic “string of pearls” pattern associated with PCOS. My OB/GYN diagnosed me with lean PCOS. I was heartbroken to get this news but it gave me so much clarity. Within two months of focusing on managing my stress, supporting my nervous system, and eating in a way that balanced my blood sugar, my cycles became regular again—and pain-free.

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However, after a full year of supporting clients—many of whom became pregnant—I found myself holding a new layer of emotion. I was so happy for them, but I also felt sadness that I was still not pregnant, despite my own commitment to my womb care practices. So in July 2025, I traveled to Chumbec, Yucatán to deepen my practice and learn directly from Nana Rafita, an ancestral partera.

 

I was nervous, so I waited until I was the last woman to receive her sobada. When it was my turn, she gently placed her hand over my womb and within seconds said, “Ah, no necesitas nada.”––You don’t need anything.

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She explained that my uterus was aligned, I didn't have inflammation, and my womb was perfect, then invited the other students to come over and feel my womb space. Then she asked me, “How do you keep it like this?” I was honestly shocked… and laughed a little. I told her my secret is yoga—especially inversions. Then I shared the real reason I wanted to see her was to find out why we weren't getting pregnant. She looked at me so sweetly and said, “Mija, si no estás embarazada, es porque no es tu tiempo. Necesitas confiar en Dios.” Translation: If you are not pregnant, it is because it is not your time. You need to trust in God.

 

In that moment, I felt so much peace. I had traveled all that way to just "come home to myself" ...again 😅. It was so healing to be held and reminded that I am whole and perfect as I am, I already have everything I need within me, and that I am not broken—despite what the Western world wants us all to believe. My body is intelligent. My womb is wise. And if I am meant to have children, it will happen in divine timing, not mine.

 

To be honest, I don’t know what my journey will look like. Some days I deeply hope to become a mother. Other days I feel at peace with the life I already have. What I do know is that I love my husband, I love my life, and I love the work I get to do supporting other women. 

 

It is an honor to hold space for womb holders navigating painful periods, fertility challenges, prolapse, trauma, or simply feeling disconnected from their bodies. It is an honor to remind you that you are not broken—you are whole and perfect as you are. You simply need to believe it and trust in your body’s incredible wisdom. Come home to yourself, amiga.

 

The more we educate ourselves, the more we reclaim our power—not just for us, but for future generations. For the young girls and womb holders who will follow our lead. It is up to us to create a new path—one where the young are taught how to honor and care for their bodies from the very beginning… even before their first bleed.

 

If my story resonated with you, I’d love to hear yours, amiga. 💖 

 

Schedule a free connection call and let’s explore how I can hold space for you. 🫶